Me

This week, not so able to go swimming much. As you know, the news reported that the this adnormal rainy period will continue for at least 1-2 weeks. Well, there was once I went to swim, and saw Samantha See and Candice there. The weather turned for the worse just when I changed out. But when they left the clouds moved themselves away. Haha. What coincidence. I think the clouds saw them leaving and decided to follow them and let the sun out for me. Ops.

Anyway, if I'm not wrong I only went swimming on Monday, and that is when I saw them. I did not managed to go because of the other rainy days. So I was only able to do some simple exercises at home using my gym-ball and my floor.

That was the major part of my everyday life: exercising. I use the computer at night. Mainly to watch "Whose line is it anyway".If you still remember the show, it was absolutely hilarious. really. Scenes from the hat, Questions only, Two line vocabulary, Let's make a date, Party Quirks, Hoedown (I don't really like this section), Greatest Hits (this too), etc. Scenes from the hat is really a test of their improvisational skills, they need to randomly come up with really funny one-liner that made sense. The one that is really good, always is the two line vocabulary. You should really go check it out.

That was some funny night-life.

I was with my mother at the provision shop last night when Reverend Yang spotted us! Then he came and greeted my mother. He then returned to his seat at the coffeeshop. Shortly after, Reverend Huang and Reverend Liu came from the direction of the Church. Reverend Liu also greeted my mother. Both of them complimented me to my mother. Then, both me and my mother was sort of smiling on the way back home. My mother hear praises about me when I'm around, and I seldom hear myself being praised when my mother is around. It's sort of weird, like caught off guard; don't know how to react, first time experiencing this. Then just now, my mother was like," you very guai one right, go cut mango for me."

Haha!

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Deano Martino

This is a picture taken by Dean's N70 @ the Chalet.


Daniel, Me, Dean, Sean and Michelle

The Toilet paper in Daniel's hand is actually of significance. You see, after the game, when it was time to go, we had to take a picture (this picture). So we stood up. Dean accidentally kicked the cup of wine. So Daniel and I cleaned it up with that roll of toilet paper before we can actually take this picture.

Enjoy! (",)

Close and Open

Ok, Polling is over!

Hey, I'll tell you the results in a while's time!

Have you seen Aloe Vera Before? Well. if you have not, there are 2 potted ones planted at the backyard of my grand's place.



Oh, I was wrong. There was 2 pots of giant aloes, and 1 pot of normal aloe. Please do not go and steal them.

Saturday was the celebration of Dean's Birthday! Dean was there, Daniel was there, Aloysius with his new love was there, Sean was there, Michelle was there. There are other MJC ppl, his other classmates. We played a card game, and I lost once out of 2 rounds. Here is how it goes. All of us sat in a circle and think of a nickname, round 1 we used animals' name and vegetables' for round 2. I was Dinosaur and Chilli. Dean gave out the cards (he combined 2 decks) one by one in a circle. It is like modified SNAP. When he gave your card and the number coincides with another person's card, the last personto call the other's person's nickname will get all the card from him/her. The round ends when all the cards are given out and the loser is the one with the most cards. I got slow reaction after the drink. Haha, to add on to it I've got only above average reaction reflex when I'm normal and I've already down 2 cups. Haha. I'm not stating excuses, I'm only saying why I lost. Fun! Daniel lost the first round, I lost the second. Sean almost lost the first round, but he got "lost" all his cards to Daniel during the end of the round. Michelle and Chin Hao have the best memory and fastest reaction.

I was the worship leader on Sunday. There was one part that I made mistakes, the Apostle Creed part. I did not memorised the creed, so I sort of like recite wrongly totally.

Esther promised to lend me (us: Her Boyfriend, Daryl and me) to read the book : "for men only" by Shaynti & Jeff Feldhahn. So I opened the book and read the first 2 chapter last night. Hmmm... Interesting... Finally Alien language understood. Haha, and all the jokes resolved. Not that I need to learn this now. The tag line for this book goes like this : "*flash flash*SHOCKER! *flash flash* Women can be understood!" if you visit the book's website. www.formenonlybook.com .

Back to Sunday. We went to watch Harry Potter after Combined BS. Thank Samuel (if you are reading this) for lending me the SAFRA card, so we could book the tickets at a discounted price on weekends. Right after we finish the BS, we dilly dallied to the bus stop (as usual). But then, even if we never did so, I do not think that we will reach Bishan on time too. You see, we waited for a long time for the bus.

At the Cinema the others went in before Min Hui and I; we went to the toilet. After that, as we do not have the ticket stubs, we do not really know which theater our show is showing. I decided to try my luck by going into the first theatre on the left. It was showing Transformers, the part where Sam just brought the girl home, or so I thought. If not, it would be the part where he brought the Autobots home. Then we went to the first one on the right. It was showing alright, but somehow it does not seems to be the starting; Harry was there battling already, I thought that it was the ending. Nonetheless, we walked down the right aisle to the supposedly our row, but the people seated there seems to be not from SF, and it looked too full to be that row. So we went back out to make verification. We went to the correct theatre, just the wrong aisle. They saved the seats on the wrong, or rather the left side for us.

The show is not bad. Unlike what people said. They said it was very bad, not good, lousy etc. I saw what I expected to see. It's up to my expectation. And Daryl you are wrong. It is up to my expectation. I did not expect more. When we reached S11, Supergirl remembered that she left her wallet on the Cinema seat and I accompanied her to retrieve it. She can be nominated as Daryl number 2. Nominations starts today! We had noodles for dinner after the show. To me noodles is just noodles. Ba Chor Mee and Wan Ton mee, makes no difference to me. We had Wan Ton mee. Jian Wen had 2. Haha.

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Fastfood Frenzy

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Actually there are some other minor details about the production lah. Like when I was having lunch that day with Hao Jie. We went to Kovan to get some food ingredients for the production's refreshments, so we decided to have MacDonalds lunch.


Lovely~ Heart-shaped fries!! (or is it fry? haha)

We were able to take a walk down town because there was not rehearsal! We are all free by 4 O'clock. Min Hui, Addison and I went down to Suntec for a walk.

Should Doughnut Factory be considered a fastfood chain? I guess not, the queue is almost never-ending, even for the new Suntec branch. We wanted to queue for it because the poor Qinyi had asked us to help. Then we checked out the entire shop, there is another counter, which allow people to buy takeaways limited to 2 pieces each person. So we joined that (no) queue and bought doughnuts that way. Fast.

Dinner! @ BK.

This taste like the old MacDonald's Fillet -O-Fish, because the new Mac's Fillet-O-Fish taste like processed fish; like bits and pieces of fish meat pressed together and then frying it after dipping it into a layer of batter. The tartar sauce is also not so good already, too sour. This BK Fish taste like the old Fillet-O-Fish because the fish taste fresher, more whole piece rather than bits and pieces, thus the "may contain fish bone' sticker. The sauce is tastier, not only sour.

Oh, ya, till date, 11 person voted! It is in favor of "change" haha!

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Vote

I've put up a poll! So, please gladly take it! It's on the right side-panel, on top of the Tagboard. (it's about the tagboard, of course I must put it there!)

Thank you!

seven seveN sevEN seVEN sEVEN SEVEN

A piece of advice. Do not volunteer to be the logistic in-charge. Tonnes of work man. Haha. But you have no choice, just do it in a efficient way.

You see, this department has to make sure that stuffs are brought in and returned every rehearsal and till the end of the production (Good thing that the preparation of props is done by Props department, not under Logistic). So as the in-charged person, even when my helpers have left the place thinking that the Logistic's role is done, I have to clear back the items. Haha. This is the downside of this Department. I'm sure that there are downsides to the other departments. I just do not know yet.

I watch Transformers: The Movie with , to all the people out there who cannot wait patiently to find out who then I suggest that you read on, someone that I know very well like been there with me, to the people who is still trying to find out whether if he's a gal or she's a guy then I think it's better for you to read on to find out that he is Daniel, who else would go to watch such a techy show with me other than another fanatic, other than he who has already book me to go watch with him, to those who still did not get who I went to watch the show with and still ask me like you need to know the answer like that of your exam question, please read upwards.

By the way, I watch that show last Monday. Just did not have time to blog it down.


Live Earth wear Green and use green

Do you know eating this:

will give you durian pee and poo? Haha.

My family had durian, I think on Tuesday.

Went to the library yesterday to borrow books on frontpage. I hope that it will help in my renovation of Eternity. So far so good, I just finish reading and trying out Chapter One. haha

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Autobots! Transform and roll out!

I want to "transform" my blog. So, I guess, it will be labeled under construction for a while!!

Tears in Heaven

I cried in Church Sunday. Not many saw it. God, maybe Addison, maybe Jess. Part of the sermon by Reverend Huang (Huang Mu Shi) is directed to us, the youths. All of that part hit me. You see, Rev. Huang is a very charismatic speaker, and everything he said made sense. God was leading him. This is what God told me through him *LINK*

After he finished, Huang Mu Shi led us in the response song (or rather response hymn) 委身之歌

When the congregation was singing the song the second time. I could not open my mouth and tears started flowing out of my eyes. I felt so useless that i could not do much for God since i believe till then. God consoled me telling me that it is okay to be weak. Because we are all humans, and are susceptible to sins. "Come to me! Great things shall be done by your hands! Have faith in your God Almighty!" “Do not be dejected, because this is not the time to be.I am going to use you."

The Father spoke to me about His Son through the Holy Spirit.

Finally!

I've received the acceptance from PSB academy / UWA. So I'll be starting school in September. PUSH. Pray Until Something Happen. Lord you knew that I needed this long before, and you gave it to me. Thank You.

Thank You.

I attended a wedding dinner last night, there are belly dancers there. Kind of reminded me of Hao Jie, his Belly Dancer song ring tone. So irritating (the ringtone).





I've gone down to PSB academy to make my 1st payment. I did know that transactions more than S$2000 is not allowed when using NETS. So I have to go down to the POSB to withdraw cash of S$4567.50. Since it was near the closing hours, the teller did not have much big notes, only 1 was left.



and many S$50 notes. (71 to be exact)


It's like, you will only see a bundle of notes in the movie when people borrow money from the loansharks.

Felt like continuing

It felt that something is missing. This is because I think that the camp entry is unfinished.

Did I mentioned that I had a haircut while I was at Malaysia? Nope right? Okay. I did, and I thought that it took me quite some bit of courage to do that; I always thought of myself as someone who would want my hair to look good, and I didn't know what will the haircut end up looking like. It was satisfactory, it was not bad.

Phew! Finally I got that sense of unrest off me. I thought that it would not do my experience justice by not telling out everything. I'll do more justice and be a just person by posting a few more pictures!


Lowflying aircraft. Rather low stagnant aircraft.


Jian Wen (centre) edited this photo before sending it to me. That's Daryl sitting down. This train is found beside the train. At the front of some kite museum.


Inside St. Paul Church.


AARRGGHH! The Black Pearl.. As if.


Programmes of the last night! See all so excited. This is something like the appreciation night. It's also the father's day special programme. They gave out this "gift voucher" which is written by the kid and the presenter will present it to the father. Simply voucher which reads, "This voucher allow you to exchange for a*something" *something like a hug or a massgae by the child. Also there are pregrammes present by the different groups. The kids presented some songs and skit. Our student group lead a modified twister game. It was twisty chaotic.


We had a good lunch on the way back to prepare us for the endless walking during the shopping hours!

Hey, it felt good to go church! All the fellowship made me feel that a Christian is a very sociable person.

The rehearsal for the 7th July production was getting better and smoother. It was actually okay to watch, compared to it was unbearable to watch it initially. Everybody gave in their efforts. Very good, well done. Rev Huang was there to help me by giving us some tips on the singing part. We practiced till quite late on Sunday. After that we had a very long conference to decide where to go for dinner. We ended up going to Bishan MOS burger. We wanted to go take some rides at the Uncle Ringo amusement park but the cost is too high. it's like 5 or 10 dollars per ride.


We did not ride, but we shot photos!


Shot by Jian Wen


This is a very interesting shot. Jian Wen positioned his phone(cam), then ask me to take the shot. Then he and han Wei went in to make the kill, i mean they went in to pose. After I've shot it, I took a look and said," It looked as though the 2 of you were 'photoshoped' in." Haha.


Hao Jie and I wanted to ride this, but it was too expensive. So we just stare at the bumper cars.
SMASH!! CRASH!! WHACK!! SCREECH!!

Whew! it's 5:30pm already. I shall prepare myself for dinner. Meeting Min Hui and Qin Yi to eat before going to Church for meeting.

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In a week of Fun

Hey! Sentosa! The Amazing race. SF have an Amazing race at Sentosa. Cool.



We had fun although the team I was facilitating got the last position. I must apologise for not reading the clues in advance (cheat a 'lil... haha). That is why we went to take the lunge straight away after going up the skylift. We should have went to the Dragon trial after taking the skylift.



I got a tan from that day, which lasted till now (2 weeks). Then I only got to shed my skin today. Delayed skin reaction. Funny skin of mine. Anyway, one more event happened in the meantime I was waiting for the skin to shed.

Church Camp @ Malaysia!

Aubrey, Daryl and I shared a room. From the few days we spent there, we can conclude that Daryl grinds his teeth hard, real hard and loud.

This is the first time I have attended the Church Camp. 10 years in Church and this is the first time. My initial intention was to ask my mother along. Which then was so unfortunate that my uncle has to go to China and the shop which my parents shared with them still require tending. My mother said that she should stay in Singapore to help out at the shop. Next, I asked my father if it is a good idea to close the shop for a week and then the whole family can go to the camp. It seems that the shop cannot be left unattended because there are other vendors coming to rent part of the shop space, so someone have to be there to take care of this matter. Thus both my parents had to stay back.

Attending the camp makes me realise that being a 'whatever' infectious, contagious or influential Christian is even more important now than in the past. I'll have to sub 'ous' for this adjective because I do not know which is the correct one. Being a 'ous' Christian. Reason being that the world is changing the Christian point of view, changing the quality of Christian. So we must stay true to the teaching and follow the bible. The world easily sway Christian off their feet telling them the importance of making money. Spending time on work is more important that spending time with God. Labouring till we are dead tired and spend no time on Bible study everyday. This is the World view of how a normal person should live. Faith is just secondary. The world tells us that believing is using the heart, there is no need to live it out, just use your heart. Believing that Jesus is the savior is sufficient, there is no need for further actions. This is the world talking to us, with a louder voice that the Holy Spirit; the Holy Spirit has been muted by all these external factors. It made Christians think that these Christian values are obsolete and are not functional in modern times. Spread the word, be a 'ous' Christian. I wanna add another ous to it. Serious. Christianity is like black and white. Either you are, or you are not. It is an identity, Either you are a someone or you are not at someone. You cannot be a ½ someone. (I'm a ½father? I'm a ½student? I'm a ½vegetarian???) When you believe that Jesus Christ cleansed your sins once and for ever, you are a Christian. Nothing less, nothing more. So, living as a Christian is how our lives ought to be, because we are one. My logic is simple: you are a male so live like one, you are a student behave like one. You are a Christian so live like one. Know your role and do it well. Remember the world is looking at us. So is God. Be responsible to the people or be responsible to God. Take a look at this verse.

Hebrews 13:5-7 (New International Version)

5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,

"Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you."

6So we say with confidence,
"The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?"

7Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith.

Us it as a Reminder.

The sermon was good. Then the walk-tour around the place is not bad either. On the second day, Jian Wen, Daryl and I walked around during the free time. As were tired of the food from the Hotel, we had food from Pizza Hut. Then we were supposed to visit the "Red Church" but Jian Wen sort of forgot his way. We visited another Church though. St. Paul Church. It is an ancient building, no longer in use. Daryl was saying that he remembered he took a photograph when he was "this small" at the square window, and he wanted to take another one when he is "this big" now.



There was a Treasure Hunt on the third Day. We had to go to St. Paul Church again for the first stop. The last station (museum) needed quite some time and only a few representative needs to do it, so the rest of the team just sat around the outside of Christ Church Malacca aka Red Church which is the ending point.

While waiting most of us would either have a Chendol drink or have an ice-cream while waiting for the few at the Museum to finish. Got to know some weirdos.


Weirdos have fun! Haha!

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Things Happen

All these things happened a while ago. SO bear with the delay.

On 17th May, I was at ICE³ (Serangoon Garden) when Aloysius called me.

"Hey, where are you?"
"I'm at ICE³, Why, you wanna come?"
"Actually, I'm already ½ way there!"
"Wah! wat a coincidence"

And so I got to see him there.

ICE³ is a ice-cream cafe. Their specialty is the "alcohol-in-test-tube-held-by-a-test-tube-holder-with-a-cup-of-ice-cream" The alcohol are mainly fruit-flavoured to suit your ice-cream.

Well, 23rd, Samantha flew to UK under the ELLEL ministry. WE went to the airport to send her off. I was the only guy there who is from LCC youth, not many of the TPBC people recognised me. Kind of awkward, but I told myself that the reason for me to be there is to send her off, I need not be affected by the other people.

31st May. Constance's Birthday Celebration at Novena. We decided that giving her a surprise before giving her the actual Birthday present is a much better way to surprise her then only giving her the surprise present.

It began like this. After receiving her message that we are invited, some of us are fretting over what to get her. Initially we wanted to get her the movie vouchers. But after consulting her boyfriend, he told us that it would not be of great use for her as it is him who usually pay for the tickets. Then he revealed to us that she mentioned that she wanted a Crumpler. So that's it, a Crumpler Bag it will be.

On that day we had her by giving her a Crumpler bag, a plastic one, that's it. You could see that her expression was down by a fraction. But then she resumed her normal self after a while at the good food. After the meal was over, we then told her that there was actually another use for the plastic bag, and i got her to return me ther plastic bag. I asked her to close her eyes not to open until it's ready. I then placed her real present the Crumpler Western Lawn into the Crumpler Plastic Bag. She opened her eyes and got so excited, unable to wait to get to her new found bag.

Red Waste

You know eating this



could give you red pee and red poo. Trust me, it's kinda interestng looking at red pee and poo. Not that I'm perverse or what, but this red flesh dragon fruit is more interesting than its white flesh friend. The red flesh variety has a fuller taste, quite similar to grape, but the white flesh has a lighter and refreshing taste. The kind of difference is like the difference between ale and lager, subtle yet obvious. You should try the fruits for yourself to really tell the difference. Currently, I'm more interested in sinking my teeth into the red flesh.

Saturday night, the JC class went out to celebrate Valerie birthday. We had dinner at Village (The hereen), then we moved over to IndoChine at Wisma.



The band sang the birthday song & also Chasing Cars(Snow patrol) for Valerie. The band sang good. That was on Saturday.

Friday, Addison had his first book out and he asked us out. We went to the White Tangerine at Kovan CC. They have a Chinese based band, but they said that they will sing English songs too. They sang Chasing Cars. That is why I compared both bands and think that the one from IndoChine is so much better.

Tuesday, I went to the interview at Baxter Healthcare. Its at Woodlands Industrial Park 2. And it took me a lot of sweat to get there. I was in a long sleeved shirt and has to travel to Kranji MRT station to transfer to a bus. Then I need to climb up a hill to reach the place. I do not know how the interview went. This is because I am the interviewed, not the interviewer. They said that they will call me in about 2 weeks to inform me if I am shortlisted or not.

MayDay

Hey, since it's already May, therefore I'll talk about what happened in April. Then after April, I'm talk about what happened in May, till now!

So there. IT should be 6th of April, I went to help out Hao Jie at Kallang for a Duck Tour event. The time was fun, except that the 4 of us had to load and keep the 2 Dragonboats. From the day, other that getting a nice
tan, i also got this.



I applied some medicine on the affected spot. It is known to me only as some kind of bacterial or fungal infection. It's okay now. The only reason I am telling you this is that I want to post this picture. Talk about boring. And disgusting.

27th April, I was at Tampines. I was actually ready to go home, but the heavy downpour held me back. Thus I walked around the malls, I was also trying to find a bilingual bible with English Standard Version and the Chinese "xin1 yi4 ben3". All Life bookshop does not carry "xin1 yi4 ben3" explained by the sales assistant. So I went to Century Square and noticed that there was a recording going on there.



Well. This also added on to the "hold me back" factor and I stayed for a while longer to watch. After seeing the 2 host at a closer distance, Quan Yi Feng is the prettier of them 2.

I bought my Swatch Spring/Summer 2007 series watch! I don't actually know the series and model. It is the [feel up] from the [men naturally] series in the Swatch official website.
http://www.swatch.com/en/watches/mennaturally.html
I bought the leather strap watch, the 4th watch in the 2nd row from the watch selector in the website!

Last night, while I was in bed, attempting to sleep, I was disturbed by something small.



I first felt it when I felt that something was crawling on my left knee. Then I tried to flick it away, but still felt it. Then I sat up and swap it away from my knee using the side of my palm. I then use a flashlight (hey this flashlight is the one I used in Police NS! It comes in very handy) to see what exactly was it. If you cannot picture it properly, it is a Queen ant. I know from her big behind. Ants do not have wings except the male drones and the Queen ant. the male drones have much slimmer behind than the queen and is of a darker colour than her brown.

After being swapped away from my leg, she crawled around my mattress, right at the left corner. Soon after she conquered the left bed frame pole. Then she walked along the edge of the bottom end of the mattress. All along, I was using the flashlight. She was there until I took this picture. Right after that, I used the nails of my right index finger and thumb to nip at her wings and threw her out of my window. Freedom to both of us. She can go find her mate (she would not be here if she's mated; she would be too busy laying eggs) and I can go back to try and sleep.

In my last paragraph, I would like to apologise to those whom I'm part of their clique but have not seen me or gone out with me for the past few months. People like Daniel, Dean and Aloysius. (don't talk about Russell, he's in Australia) From MJC. People like Nigel, Lionel from NS. Sorry.

iWindows

Vista, at last. You know, when Microsoft launches new products., a lot of Mac/Apple fanatics will try to make some humor out of it. But although for me, I am not a Mac/Apple Fanatic, I just want to join in the fun.

Q: What does Vista stands for?
A: Various Improvements, Similar to Apple.

I heard this from my friends, quite funny, quite lame. But I'm calling my OS, the iWindows. Haha.

Initially, I thought that it would be a major "operation" for me to upgrade Xp Media Centre Edition to Vista Home Premium. Thus following the advices on the upgrade manual, I did back-up of my files and all. The upgrade, it really is only an upgrade of the OS from Xp to Vista. it does not affect he other programmes and stuffs unless you choose to install a clean copy of Windows. The advice to back-up the files, is simply, for back-up. Just in case. After that, there was a little hassle going on, where I have to manually install some of the audio and graphics divers from the HP website. That's about it all that I have to do. This looks more like a plastic surgery than an organ transplant operation. It beautifies the looks of the desktop, and it goes all smooth, you know what I mean by smooth when you start to use Vista.

My wisdom tooth is 'growing". I mean it is showing more and more of itself. So excited for my new teeth. I wonder when the other 3 will be born. Haha!

I'm still school-less, but I'm seeking help. So NO WORRIES!

Postman

Let me whine a little here.

When I did not Blog, friends says that I did Blog, fair enough. But when I blog regularly, no one notices it.

Sorry, things happens for over a month since the last entry, some big,some small.

But this is one new news, my upper left wisdom tooth is emerging. It's news, alright! It not painful; I just felt funny/weird, just like a big baby, teething at 21.

My next entry will be after I upgrade my Campaq system to Vista.

See you in the next generation!

Friend II

People are sculpted by friends around them during their growing phase, they are like some sort of mould. They mould one into the person that they will become.

I already am the person I am now. Do I still need friends to mould me?

Friend

After the listening to Min Hui on the bus, I now think that it does not mean the more you know a person, the better a friend the person is to you.

Often it when you want to give a person his/her status of being your own good friend before you will go and understand him/her more. This status of being another person's good friend is not up to you to earn, but rather for that other person to bestow to you. It is a gift.

I just get this feeling that a lot of friendships are like that. Think about it, analyse it. Why is there so much logical thinking involved in something that functions using emotion. There are so much external conditions and judging involved.

After Yang Mu Shi's sermon about friend (Proverbs) on Sunday, it then dawned onto me that being a friend that was described in his sermon is very easy. Very biblical, very easy. But being that 'friend' that your friend expects you to be, that is not so easy. Being someone that the person wants you to be, is not the image of friend that I think that Proverbs (or Yang Mu Shi) is talking about.

3rd time

I actually blew my top again for the 3rd time that I can remember. That's today.

The 1st time was at my Grandmother over some eating habits.
The 2nd time was at my sister over some disagreement.
Just now was the 3rd time.

I was transfered to Tan Tock Seng Hospital's Kopitiam foodcourt from Tampines's branch. I was very unwilling. Due to many factors.

When I started to work, I told myself that I will try to adapt. But all the things happening there are those that irritates me the most. All together. Handling cash, cannot have a mind of my own, no communication. I cannot expect myself follow commands that was barked at me, without knowing if I'm doing the correct thing; without knowing if I'm serving the correct beverage to the correct customer, because the other lady works like she is a separated limb from the 'team'. She just carry on asking the next person on the queue and prepare the drinks way too advance and then just ask me to serve and collect the money. I function this way: I must know that I am doing hte correct thing before I do it, or else I will feel very bad about the whole thing.

I excused myself when there was a one second break to go to the toilet. The queue is endless and it never seems to stop. I had to excuse myself when I spotted a break in the queue. In the toilet cubicle, I asked myself, why do I have to torture myself staying here? And then I started to unbutton my uniform. I marched out of the toilet towards the lift. I wanted to go visit my grandmother. When I reached the ward, I saw my grandmother, my mother, my uncle and my aunt. I had this thought, a very dramatic scene where you can only see in the shows. I could not control myself then and I threw that piece of uniform on the floor and I try to yell softly (because it is a hospital, and because it's been a long time I got so angry that I forgot how to shout) "I'm not working anymore!" in Chinese (wo bu yao zhuo le!). I proceeded to sit down next to my grandmother's bed. My uncle was the first to respond saying that I cannot lose my cool like that, what more there are patients here and the might be frightened. Then my mother said," since you don't like then stop working." And that was the thing I was deciding to do. I think walked straight in tot he office and told the manager that I want to quit in a very cold manner. I can see that she was very shocked by my actions and she was quite dumbfounded as she did not know how to respond. Her reply was that I need to give a 3 days in advance notice of termination of work. I answered immediately," today is the 1st day." Her idea was that I finished my work for the day before leaving, then I told her that I was sick ( i really felt so) and I have to go for an MC that day (which I did not in the end). Later she asked the OE to let me sign the termination form, I hesitated for awhile, and told her that I have to make a call. I called Min Hui to get Gina's number which then she told me that the branch manager is the one who plans the duty roster and for shopping malls, it is very hard to cater to our need to be excused from the weekends. That was one of the reasons that i was being transfered to TTSH branch. Thus I've got a proposal to work on Saturday morning. Gina told me to call the Tampines branch manager and tell him about it. I called. In the end we were transfered back to Tampines branch and I was not quitting the job yet.

The TTSH manager then talked to me about this thing, saying that she understood that us young people might get a bit impulsive (like me, but it worked) because for a lot of young people are educated and it is not the best job to be a shop assistant. She thought that people like us are more suitable to work in the administrative side instead. I agreed with her. We had a little small talk and that cooled me off a bit. I asked her about the other branches' people and the MD.

I returned to the ward. I thought to myself: I should have felt better after letting off some steam, but it did not. I would have if I'm not a Christian, but I not sure if I would have enjoyed the moment as a Christian.

growl

Too painful to stay awake.
Too hard to fall asleep.
Help me.

That was what I was feeling for the past 4 days.